
Well, we had almost a month to get used to the idea, but it hits hard nonetheless.
After a valiant effort, Othello rapidly declined over the past week. He struggled to get around, and eventually got to the point where he couldn’t stand any more. When he lost his appetite on Tuesday, we knew the time had come.
The idea of loading Othello into the carrier and dragging him to the vet’s office was agonizing, so I made arrangements with Keystone Mobile Veterinary Service to come to our house. The idea was that Othello could be ushered out in his own space with minimal stress. We had an appointment for 3:00 this afternoon.
Last night, I could tell we were at the end. Othello seemed ready to go, and we all said our goodbyes. When I went to work this morning, I didn’t know what to expect. School was on a 2 hour delay which later turned into a closure, so Brian and Max were home with Othello all day. This was a great gift.
I checked in with the boys several times over the morning, and at about 11:15 Max told me he thought Othello was gasping periodically. I knew what that meant, so I immediately packed up and left work. Brian called Bret while I was on my way home and said he thought maybe Othello had just died. Sure enough, he was gone when I arrived at home.
I am so very grateful that Othello went peacefully, on his own terms, without human intervention. I am grateful that he was not alone, but supported by two boys who loved him and whom he loved. They have been absolutely marvelous throughout this process. Bret came home to say goodbye as well. I washed Othello’s face, brushed his fur, and wrapped him in a blanket to await his next destination.
I’ve had to put down two cats before Othello. One was Koshka, who I had for 12 years. I never felt any conflict about needing to bury the cats before, but with Othello, it is different. It feels wrong to send him off to a mass disposal at the vet. It also feels wrong to bury him here when we don’t know how long we’ll live here, or if we’ll need to dig up that area. So I’ve decided to have Othello cremated and will keep his ashes in a small cedar box. It won’t be displayed or anything creepy, but it will be with us wherever we go, and if we decide down the road to do something with his ashes, we will. It just seems like the right thing to do.
It’s hard to believe he’s gone. 19 years is a very long time. I’m used to him sitting in front of me, looking at me and patting my face with his paw to get me to pet him. I took care of him for 19 years. I am glad he took care of me by slipping away quietly today.